Mittwoch, 8. Juli 2009

The worst thing of the life: Gone without goodbye

今天一个偶然的机会,很难过地听说高中三年对我们很好的政治老师家里出事了,没有证实的消息说她的爱子因为车祸丧生了,这位老师精神受到了刺激,住进了医院。听罢消息,沉默伤感了半天,却找不出合适的语言。目前我正在召集同班同学们(天津一中,02届三班)证实这条消息,并做力所能及的帮助。向她和她的家人表达我们最诚恳的致意和问候,祝她早日康复——失去的亲人永远无法回来,但我们永远都是她的儿女。



这个伤感的消息出现在七月,一个七年前我也体味到Gone without goodbye滋味的月份。前几天在blog上贴Brian Littrell的Grace of my Life是感谢主赐予理解和爱情,而Brian专辑Welcome Home中的另一首歌,Gone without goodbye,vividly带我们重新体会未必山崩地裂,但却终身撕心裂肺的这种没有告别的分别。

2001和2002年,两年之内我失去了两位亲人。令人伤感的是,和他们的分别都没有说再见。姥姥去世前我的确有预感,但却没有意料来的那么快;父亲去世得则更加突然,还记得他对我说的最后一句话是注意交通,却不是再见。我记得GI的情况也是类似的。Gone without goodbye或许在一开始并不严重,它的残酷之处在于慢慢地折磨。或许在多年之后的夜里,突然想到那些离别,突然会泪流满面。而我的老师,退休之际本可以享受天伦之乐,现实却不得不逼她白发人送黑发人,何等残酷!我不知道他是不是老师的唯一子女,但无论如何这样的打击常人都难以承受。如今说“请节哀”已于事无补,只能继希望于医药能恢复神智——但那何尝又不是一种痛苦!

我还记得高中的时候,老师不仅仅传道受业,更注意为我们这群不谙世事的孩子解惑。难以忘记第一次摸底测验对我高中三年政治乃至其他学习的巨大影响——知耻而后勇。难以忘记和她一起去企业参观,一起讨论问题,一起准备考试,高考后一起谈理想谈家常。与其说是老师,不如说她更是我的朋友。朋友丧子,自己却无能为力,悲哉哀哉!只求证实消息,用书信或者电话一表问候,再尽我所能解决家庭可能遇到的燃眉之急。前面说过,无论好转与否,未来对她而言都不容易。人,无助!

活着的人,珍惜你爱和爱你的人,等到真的面对Gone without goodbye的时候,一切都已经太晚了。


Have you seen my son?
Not too tall, 5'8"
She held up a coloured copy, photograph
From his wedding day
And this is his pregnant wife
Carrying his last dream
He walked down 46 floors before he felt the rush
The rush of gasoline

I can feel the pain
Looking in their eyes
But I don't know gone without good-bye
If I could reach the sky
I'd bring him right back to your arms
Though I haven't seen your son, he's forever in my life

Have you seen my little girl?
She's got curly black hair
She took this Raggedy-Ann doll, everywhere
Last I saw her over there
Then I heard a plight of screams
And a speeding van
I watched these tears pour down
A father's last attemp of being a rational man

Though I can feel the pain
Look into his eyes
But I don't know gone without good-bye
If I could reach the sky I'd bring her right back to your arms
Though I haven't seen your girl, she's forever in my life

And have you seen my faith?
It can run, it can hide
Jesus mend this breaking heart of mine
That keeps on loving life

Though I can feel the pain
Look into my eyes
But I don't know gone without good-bye
If I could reach the sky
I'd try to turn the world around
So that we could see the face of forever
Stay alive

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hug and bless