Samstag, 25. Juli 2009

坚决不结婚

刚才给老妈打电话,显然日子不对,有点话不投机的感觉,是我的错。

不过中间说闲话的时候,突然提到老爸老妈一辈子光为了家庭,父母和我业,竟然没有一点享受。老爸除了喜欢鱼和花草这些几乎没有花费的爱好,几乎没有其他的嗜好,一辈子连自己的手机都没有;老妈的爱好更少了。再看看我:屋里的高清电视,家庭音响,高级耳机,单反相机,电脑,笔记本,GPS,...

坚决不结婚,我要这样享受一辈子。我的父母很普通却很伟大,我很钦佩他们,但我决不想重复他们的道路。

如是

Samstag, 18. Juli 2009

声色,我所欲也

不过我也遵守富贵不能淫,威武不能屈,贫贱不能移的教训。


  • 声: 音乐,在确定了我的Teufel Magnum e Power Edition更适合看球和电影以及zocken后,我需要一台专门用来欣赏音乐的音响(画外音: 想找借口总是有的...),以及第二块内置声卡(Creative XFi Champion的数字输出不太好),初步确定M-Audio Audiophile 192 (ca €170) 和Edifier S2000 (ca €350) 的组合。除了Geld的Problem,主要的问题在于我的桌面已经被两个22-Zoll显示屏占满了,而我又不想把书架箱放在其他地方。不过这些困难一定要排除。。。

    Update on 28.08.09: 今天赶上Amazon上一家特价,Edifier 2000以335€入手。暂时不考虑加声卡,毕竟先把Creative的玩好就很不容易了.

  • 色:摄影。如果不出意外情况,本月底入手几乎全新二手Sigma 17-70mm 2.8-4.5 (ca €250)。接下来的计划是Canon的EF 70-300mm 4.0-5.6 IS USM (ca 460€) 和颇带点传奇色彩的EF 50mm 1.4 USM (ca €360)。除了银子的问题,找时间多锻炼也十分必要。


    Update on 28.08.09: 长焦计划未变,50定焦突然爱上Sigma的1,4,虽然贵一点,但据说只要运气好还是很不错的.

    至于平时说的声色犬马,对狗我有足够的兴趣,比如心爱的Beagle,见Amazon上Canon EF 70-300mm 4.0-5.6样片一张。可惜目前房子太小养不了,期待中。至于马,暂时只钟意于BMW...

    努力攒钱腐败中...
  • Mittwoch, 8. Juli 2009

    The worst thing of the life: Gone without goodbye

    今天一个偶然的机会,很难过地听说高中三年对我们很好的政治老师家里出事了,没有证实的消息说她的爱子因为车祸丧生了,这位老师精神受到了刺激,住进了医院。听罢消息,沉默伤感了半天,却找不出合适的语言。目前我正在召集同班同学们(天津一中,02届三班)证实这条消息,并做力所能及的帮助。向她和她的家人表达我们最诚恳的致意和问候,祝她早日康复——失去的亲人永远无法回来,但我们永远都是她的儿女。



    这个伤感的消息出现在七月,一个七年前我也体味到Gone without goodbye滋味的月份。前几天在blog上贴Brian Littrell的Grace of my Life是感谢主赐予理解和爱情,而Brian专辑Welcome Home中的另一首歌,Gone without goodbye,vividly带我们重新体会未必山崩地裂,但却终身撕心裂肺的这种没有告别的分别。

    2001和2002年,两年之内我失去了两位亲人。令人伤感的是,和他们的分别都没有说再见。姥姥去世前我的确有预感,但却没有意料来的那么快;父亲去世得则更加突然,还记得他对我说的最后一句话是注意交通,却不是再见。我记得GI的情况也是类似的。Gone without goodbye或许在一开始并不严重,它的残酷之处在于慢慢地折磨。或许在多年之后的夜里,突然想到那些离别,突然会泪流满面。而我的老师,退休之际本可以享受天伦之乐,现实却不得不逼她白发人送黑发人,何等残酷!我不知道他是不是老师的唯一子女,但无论如何这样的打击常人都难以承受。如今说“请节哀”已于事无补,只能继希望于医药能恢复神智——但那何尝又不是一种痛苦!

    我还记得高中的时候,老师不仅仅传道受业,更注意为我们这群不谙世事的孩子解惑。难以忘记第一次摸底测验对我高中三年政治乃至其他学习的巨大影响——知耻而后勇。难以忘记和她一起去企业参观,一起讨论问题,一起准备考试,高考后一起谈理想谈家常。与其说是老师,不如说她更是我的朋友。朋友丧子,自己却无能为力,悲哉哀哉!只求证实消息,用书信或者电话一表问候,再尽我所能解决家庭可能遇到的燃眉之急。前面说过,无论好转与否,未来对她而言都不容易。人,无助!

    活着的人,珍惜你爱和爱你的人,等到真的面对Gone without goodbye的时候,一切都已经太晚了。


    Have you seen my son?
    Not too tall, 5'8"
    She held up a coloured copy, photograph
    From his wedding day
    And this is his pregnant wife
    Carrying his last dream
    He walked down 46 floors before he felt the rush
    The rush of gasoline

    I can feel the pain
    Looking in their eyes
    But I don't know gone without good-bye
    If I could reach the sky
    I'd bring him right back to your arms
    Though I haven't seen your son, he's forever in my life

    Have you seen my little girl?
    She's got curly black hair
    She took this Raggedy-Ann doll, everywhere
    Last I saw her over there
    Then I heard a plight of screams
    And a speeding van
    I watched these tears pour down
    A father's last attemp of being a rational man

    Though I can feel the pain
    Look into his eyes
    But I don't know gone without good-bye
    If I could reach the sky I'd bring her right back to your arms
    Though I haven't seen your girl, she's forever in my life

    And have you seen my faith?
    It can run, it can hide
    Jesus mend this breaking heart of mine
    That keeps on loving life

    Though I can feel the pain
    Look into my eyes
    But I don't know gone without good-bye
    If I could reach the sky
    I'd try to turn the world around
    So that we could see the face of forever
    Stay alive

    Samstag, 4. Juli 2009

    The best thing of the life: you know you are loved



    爱就是不断学习的过程,从年少轻狂甚至强求,到学会在两人世界里留给对方一点空间,才懂得当年的愚蠢和现在的可贵。这条路不会平坦,但相信能走到那个地方,the safest place to hide.

    Grace of my Life
    Brian Littrell


    I lie awake so often at night
    with something to read or something to write.
    In the silence my mind is free
    to think of the ways that God has blesses me.

    It's easy to see
    how He's been so kind
    Any proof I might need is right
    here by my side

    You are the grace of my life,
    so tender, so undeserved
    Hard to believe you're mine,
    even harder to put what I feel into words

    If I need evidence God is good,
    just looking at you is enough
    You are the grace of my life
    for you grace my life with your life

    Love that is pure, so faithful and strong
    you forgive me when I do you wrong
    I've seen in you time after time
    a picture on earth of love so divine

    Oh, I am amazed for how can it be,
    this someone like you would love someone like me

    You are the grace of my life,
    so tender, so undeserved
    Hard to believe you're mine
    even harder to put what I feel into words

    If I need evidence God is good,
    just looking at you is enough
    You are the grace of my life
    for you grace my life with your love